मयैतत्प्रार्थितं व्यर्थं चिकित्सेव गतायुषि । प्रसाद्य जगदात्मानं तपसा दुष्प्रसादनम् । भवच्छिदमयाचेऽहं भवं भाग्यविवर्जित: ॥ ३४ ॥
mayaitat prarthitam vyartham cikitseva gatayusi prasadya jagad-atmanam tapasa dusprasadanam bhava-cchidam ayace ’ham bhavam bhagya-vivarjitah
- maya
- by me
- etat
- this
- prarthitam
- prayed for
- vyartham
- uselessly
- cikitsa
- treatment
- iva
- like
- gata
- has ended
- ayusi
- for one whose life
- prasadya
- after satisfying
- jagat-atmanam
- the soul of the universe
- tapasa
- by austerity
- dusprasadanam
- who is very difficult to satisfy
- bhava-chidam
- the Personality of Godhead, who can cut the chain of birth and death
- ayace
- prayed for
- aham
- I
- bhavam
- repetition of birth and death
- bhagya
- fortune
- vivarjitah
- being without
It is very difficult to satisfy the Supreme Personality of Godhead, but in my case, although I have satisfied the Supersoul of the whole universe, I have prayed only for useless things. My activities were exactly like treatment given to a person who is already dead. Just see how unfortunate I am, for in spite of meeting the Supreme Lord, who can cut one’s link with birth and death, I have prayed for the same conditions again.